About

So…. this is all new to me..and quite frankly I have no idea what I am doing.  In fact I barely knew how to set up this site.  But something is driving me to do this and I am hoping that this site will enable me and all of you to start a new chapter with me. A journey of self discovery and meaning.  

It is a site for connections, networking – showing off and just having a sounding board. Somewhere you can feel you belong again.

I am a stay at home mom.  Something that is seen as rather redundant these days and I don’t feel very valued.    I have also reached a stage in my life where I am looking for more purpose.  The mothering instincts have fizzled out somewhat and now I need to find Charlotte again….yes I know I am not unique, but don’t we all feel we have it worse than others and that no one really understands?
Don’t get me wrong I love being a mother and I think I put rather too much time into the job so much so that I lost elf along the way.  It seemed all perfectly normal and comfortable at the time, but now I am bored frustrated and rather resentful.  I am angry with myself mostly, for allowing this to happen.  Are we not all victims of our choices.  My choices seem to have rather dark consequences and despite reading numerous spiritual and uplifting books, mediating and attending workshops..I am still trying to discover who I am and where I fit?  The job landscape is so daunting and recognize it.  Its like I was put to sleep for 12 years and then returned to a new planet like the movie Alien…and yes sometimes I feel like my life is a horror movie. I don’t have 5 degrees and neither am I registered with all these institutions one has to be part of in order to be validated in the workplace.  So basically I am invisible. And so I feel swallowed up in a foreign world that is moving so fast I can’t catch my breath. Then of course the guilt and self loathing seeps in and this just creates further paralyses and I seem to be digging myself further into this pit of despair and self pity.  I am hoping people can relate to this.  I am hoping I am  not an alien that landed on earth and just cannot plug in to this reality. The curse of comparing is also one of my many demons and shackles me to self fulfilling prophesies…oh i didnt do that..i dont do that..oh i am useless. 

BUT IT IS NOT ALL DOOM AND GLOOM!  I HAVE AN AMAZING SENSE OF HUMOUR AND DARE I SAY I AM GOOD AT DRAMA..SO I AM GOING TO SHARE HILARIOUS VIDEOS OF MYSELF .  I AM GOING TO SHARE THOUGHTS, IDEAS AND MY CARTOONS WITH YOU.  I AM GOING TO SHARE EXCERPTS OF MY BOOK WITH YOU.  AND YOU I HOPE WILL DO THE SAME..AND TOGETHER WE WILL MAKE IT..SOMETHING WONDERFUL WILL BREAK OUT OF US AND CRACK THE COCOON OPEN… SETTING US FREE TO RELISH OUR TALENTS AGAIN AND BECOME PASSIONATE ABOUT LIFE.  THERE IS NOTHING HOLDING US BACK OTHER THAN OUR OWN TOXIC THOUGHTS.

THIS SITE SERVES TO HEAL, INSPIRE, NURTURE AND PROVIDE OPPORTUNITIES – THROUGH NETWORKING, SHARING AND HONESTY. I AM EXCITED TO START THIS JOURNEY WITH YOU..AND MEET NEW TRIBES OF PEOPLE WITH DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVES AND OUTLOOKS.